I've definitely hit the "what the heck was I thinking?!" phase of training. I'm not sticking with the training program, and every workout feels like a struggle. A big heaping spoonful of "you're not good enough. You're not fast enough. You're going to fail." It sucks. I'm supposed to be doing 'easy runs' for three miles now instead of the 'run/walks' I was doing, but I just can't manage it. They say you're supposed to be able to carry on a conversation while running your 'easy run' pace, but I don't even think I could do that if I was just walking quickly. I don't know what to do...
Start yoga classes, I suppose. It's one of the recommended cross-training methods, and it'll hopefully help my knee/hip/back feel better, and maybe help me run straight.
I feel so down on myself. I wasn't expecting to be fantastic or anything, but I was hoping I'd at least feel better. Like I was improving.
Like I'd actually have a hope of finishing a half marathon.
55 days.
